Stick it to me, monkey

Another job interview today. The job in New York fell through about 24 hours after the silo epiphany, so I now have no eggs in my basket. Nothing is sticking, I swear. I am rubber girl. All I can do is remove myself from myself, or like one of my patients said to me, stand outside yourself and look at yourself from afar. "Your life is so exciting", everyone is saying to me. If you could only enjoy this time and know that it is transient. Yes, it is exciting. But not in that "I am sooooo excited" sorta way. Not if you are in it. It's like a roller coaster ride gone bad. I know what I want to be doing, I just want to go be doing it. NOW. I just want everything to fall into place very soon.

I am making alot of progress on the Hanuman Chalisa. Recitation of the Hanuman Chalisa is supposed to help remove obstacles for those who attempt it. I have two different versions, and I don't know what rhythm to choose. Neither of them fit my voice great, but I have to pick one and stick with it. I don't even know who is going to accompany me yet. Stick it to me, monkey.